With that being said, I haven’t written anything since May 2015. I’m not sure why. I’ve composed more posts in my head than I can count. I’ve “written” about my first experience with empty nest and how scared I am about it being completely empty next year. I’ve “written” about how friendships and marriage change as your kids graduate and leave home. I’ve “written” about the changing dynamics once our parents begin to age and roles begin to reverse. I’ve “written” about my journey towards gratitude this year and how it’s changed my life. I’m not sure why I’m not putting anything down on paper anymore or why I’ve become a bit afraid of that “publish” button I used to push so freely. When I started LimitlessLessons it was just for me. A way for me to express my creative side, to record important moments for my kids to look back on when they are older, and to find support of others going through the same things I am. I guess as time went on I realized I wasn’t ready to be as vulnerable as I thought I was. I realized I had stopped writing for me and I had started writing for others…making sure I was politically correct in all my posts, worrying about stepping on toes or hurting someone’s feelings. They say as you get older you worry less about what people think, but I was finding just the opposite. I wondered what people were saying about my writing behind my back and began to feel anxious every time I published something. It wasn’t as fun anymore. It felt like work.
Obviously I needed the break and I’ve been able to re-energize and re-prioritize. I’m ready to write again. I can’t promise to publish everything I write, but I’m ready to express myself again. There is so much to talk about! I’m starting today to document my trip to Haiti. As I take some time to process and best articulate these experiences, I will be sharing some of my favorite posts from years past. I hope revisiting these will remind me why I started this in the first place. So thanks for reading if this is the kind of thing that interests you. And if it doesn’t, thanks for scrolling on through quietly and loving me anyway! Xo
P.S. After I wrote this, I went back to look at some of my old posts and realized my first published post was on this very day (February 1) in 2013. Coincidence? I think not! The universe is telling me it’s time to begin…again!